hi.
im sorry i know how that sounded and it all came out wronge, and you know the first thing i did when you didnt reply? send my bff an offline message saying i fucked up with a friend and to call me like asap. when moh who im talking to aswell was like im bored entertain me in like im talking to this friend of mine and i think i just fucked up.
im not sure you even read this but if you do know that with all this shit thats happening your name was the first one that popped into my head when i decided i needed to talk to someone, and i was going to call but i was crying and theres this whole thing i have about not letting people see or hear me cry, but i seriously contimplated calling anyways.
my walls are still up to you but it wont take much to get through them because you are always there for me, like no matter what. i didnt think i could talk about this, when i thought about calling it was more to hear reasurance that someones out there thats always there for me no matter what. so many people were like that and i slowly lost them one by one, i have 2 left and the reason im trying not to let you in is because i cant stand to lose you, not now not ever.
im leaving now before i wite to much, and i dont even know if you read this or not. but it had to be writen
i love you
Motley
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