and i want you to know it could not have been better

so again me and my two friends were 3,4 and 5th wheels to our couple. i think one day when we do camp get 2gethers he should come alone, so we get full attention but just 5%, no dont get me wronge i realy like her, shes nice but i sorta wanna hang out with my friend not my friends girlfriend! but other than that i had a great day.. me and the.(beautiful).let.down (dude you need a smaller name) met up with some camp friends.. well two and the girlfriend, we made the go train and ttc without getting raped so thats a plus :) we just chilled at the food court for two hours before everyone had to go to see the hockey game *sigh* and now one of the catherines are over *runs away*

{*side note* i just had dinner.. it was some crappy vegitarian shit from that cook book... so my sister bitches for like 10 minutes on how i dont like any vegitarian meal and bla bla bla my reants are like yea open your horizon eat it and shit like that. then i noticed what my sister was wearing MY favorite shirt and i pointed it out and my rents were all no no you gave it to her. BULLSHIT i can b thirty and it can have a millions hole and i would still have it, not wear it but have it, its special to me. my friends have seen what i feel about my camera.. it moultiplys way to much with that shirt. iv had it for years. no one would understand but its special to me, like a safty blanket i guess.}

im kinda happy. it was only awkward between me n him maybe once or twice through the intire thing which is very good, some part of me wants to take everything i said back, hide it behind one of my giant walls, hide it form the world put it back so we are what we were, so i dont have to watch what i say, wonder what he thinks, see what happens next and feel disapointed. but another part of me wants it like this, maybe it can get better, maybe i wont have to watch what i say, wonder what he thinks, hope for the best. but i know thats never gonna happen, so i guess im in the same boat as another friend of mine... well two friends of mine actually but distance isnt their problem.


oh yeah and saturday uhuh yup had so much fun being ignored by 8 different people at once... at least meghan seems to like me.

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